This blog post could have had a bunch of titles:
Don’t Get Me Started – I’m Trying To Get A Hold On This! or
It’s complicated…that’s for sure! or
Get In Line & Settle Down or I’m Hella Positive For Real
Confused much? Haha. Read on!
This is going to be the quickest blog post I have ever prepared… I am roaring laughing at the synchronicity of things at the moment – even small, frivolous things like what I am about to share…
I love Gwen Stefani and her band, No Doubt. I’ve been hanging out to hear tracks from their much awaited new album. I did a quick search to find it came out this week and I played it then BAM!
A short time into the song I roared laughing in disbelief and let out a “Ahhh! Nooo f**king way!”. The lyrics are just toooo perfect for where my head is right now, for where I am at in this whole adventure of transforming my life and striving to be the best version of me.
Between all the things I am working on and pushing myself to achieve (professionally, my health &fitness and personal goals & mindset stuff) I am really coming out the other side of a turbulent 4 – 6 months… for the Emazonians out there let’s just say my Red Self (authentic self) has been throwing everything she’s got at me – feathers, rocks and trucks. Trucks that have backed up to hit me again and some that have seemingly sat and spun their wheels on me!! At times I have been sent sideways, I have been planted on my arse. My Red Self has raged, rebelled and really pulled out all her moves to get my attention. It’s not the first time…but it’s been rather spectacular… I even had a rebellious phase of reverting back to the ‘work hard, play harder’ mentallity of my 20s! She’s really thrown everything at me. What is new is that it is the first time I have had awareness AND been prepared to take it all in and act, or rather, STAND (another reference for Emazon and her girls!). I am coming out the other side with some huge lessons learnt, some huge changes made and bigger ones just around the corner!
I am shedding layers and getting lots of shit sorted in my head; learning to mentally & physically harness and control the firey energy I possess that blazes and is sometimes difficult to protect when others want a piece of it for themselves instead of creating their own energy. And, furthermore, the lack of awareness and control of my energy sometimes resulted in burnout in the past. Learning to find my ‘earth’… my ‘water’.
Endings and Beginnings. It’s exciting & terrifying: hence some of us use the term Terraciting!
The weight comes off fast when you undertake a weight loss program but the rest of the transformation is epic… for your body, mind and spirit. My body is still recovering from being severely obese – it needs rehab and it needs to learn things. When it comes to the mind and spirit well that is even more epic. The process of losing weight and transforming your life is like an iceberg… there’s far more going on beneath the surface than you can see above the water.
I am deep, DEEP in it at the moment. I’ve been blessed to have some awesome coaches around me whose brains I can pick and whose mentoring I can trust: Jodie, Emma (aka Emazon), Mase & the other lads at Zenergy, my physios and of course, my closest family and friends.
After months of struggle and feeling like I was ‘jamming‘ everything and feeling the ‘jarring‘ of things just not sitting right I am now mostly beyond that place. If not beyond it, certainly in a great place to take the next step beyond it. In the last month I’ve ‘found my flow’ as it was put to me. The universe is rewarding me for paying attention my my Red Self and standing up and allowing my authentic self to shine.
I will say no more – there’s a huge amount I will share on this blog in the months ahead but much of it is still getting sorted; I am right in it all at the moment. Processing. And very busy taking action on my goals while I have this wonderful flow happening!
Just listen / read! I have highlighted in RED the phrases that really struck me as just being spot on! You will see it is most of the lyrics… haha.
Get get get in line, and settle down
Get in line, and settle down
What’s your twenty? (Do you copy?)
Where’s your brain? (Do you copy?)
Checking in to check you out
Concerned about your whereabouts
Copy that, you’re acting strange
So tell me what is going on
So heavy I bet
I’m fine (and nothing’s gonna knock this girl down)
I’m hella positive for real, I’m all good no
I’m fine (and nothing’s gonna knock this girl down)
It’s gotten complicated that’s for sure
But you can see it my eyes, you can read on my lips
I’m trying to get a hold on this
And I really mean it this time
And you know it’s such a trip
Don’t get me started
I’m trying to get a hold on this
Get get get in line, and settle down
Get in line, and settle down
No big deal (I can handle it)
It’ll bounce off me (I can handle it)
In or out, moved block before, doesn’t matter anymore
Here we go again, are you insane?
We’re underneath the avalanche so heavy again
I’m fine (and nothing’s gonna knock this girl down)
I’m hella positive for real, i’m all good no
I’m fine (and nothing’s gonna knock this girl down)
It’s gotten complicated that’s for sure
But you can see it my eyes, you can read on my lips
I’m trying to get a hold on this
And I really mean it this time
And you know it’s such a trip
Don’t get me started
I’m trying to get a hold on this
Get get get in line, and settle down
Get in line, and settle down
I’m a rough and tough, i’m a rough and tough
And nothing’s gonna knock this girl down
I’m a rough and tough, i’m a rough and tough
And nothing’s gonna knock this girl down
I’m a rough and tough, i’m a rough and tough
And nothing’s gonna knock this girl down
I’m a rough and tough, i’m a rough and tough
But you can see it my eyes, you can read on my lips
I’m trying to get a hold on this
And I really mean it this time
And you know it’s such a trip
Don’t get me started
I’m trying to get a hold on this
Gotta get a hold on this
Trying to get a hold on this
Don’t get me started
Gotta get a hold on this
Get get get in line, and settle down
Get in line, and settle down
Get get get in line, and settle down
Get in line, and settle down
No answers… no wrap up comments. Just putting it out there. This is a crazy, awesome ride right now!! xx Ange
